This is the first new years eve since i was thirteen/fourteen that i’m not having suicidal thoughts or try to commit suicide.
I am twenty now and i am really really happy that those thoughts don’t haunt me anymore.
December 2010
I went shopping with my daddy today!
We got:
- an iphone 4 for my mother, her birthday is january 3th
- 3 dvd series of Waking the Dead for her too
- a book about Venice and villa’s/architecture, also for her
- supernatural season 4 for me
- a beautiful jacket for meee
- a dvd about beautiful egypt for me
Yay. ^^
“It feels like somebody took my heart and dropped it into a bucket of boiling tears. At the same time somebody else is hitting my soul in the crotch with a frozen sledgehammer. And then a third guy walks in and starts punching me in the grief bone. and I’m crying. and nobody can hear me…. because I’m terribly, terribly, terribly….. alone.”
—Michael Scott, “The Office” (via tenmilliondreams) (via thisisheartbreak) (via cuntlery) (via affably) (via bohemea) (via suicideblonde)